A lonely AJ

2005AD will be leaving us in few more hours, and 2006 will appear. The scientist says, the will be a minutes extra but for me it doesn’t matter much. What important is the achievements I have made this year. However, there is still some misses. So what are my achievements I made, here they are:

Achievement
Working in a company, I really don like but hey look at the bright side of life. I do at lease have a job unlike some people out there.

Another achievement I made this year is the ability for me, to pay $4,000.00 to Steve making me only own him $2,000.00 which I going to pay him by February 2006.

Lastly I having a life partner which I actually thought could not have happen at all. I happier with him now than before, more feeling missing when not seeing but more understanding him when not meeting him. I do hope his mum will change next year and be more flex.

Now for me to state my miss for this year, and there are:

Misses
Ever since I am going to start my business, I could not buy myself a laptop of my dream nor can I give monthly allowance to my boiboi. It sad but hey in life we need to scarifies thing. Not just that but a lot of other thing I wish and want to buy.

Another miss in life is that, working in twelve hours makes me isolate myself form the world. I don’t even know that 2006 coming in new days time, it my mum who told me about it. I miss my life where every day is so good to meet event I am down that day.

Ahead
As posted in all my previous blog, I am going to start my own business. So, hopefully by second quarter of 2006 I going kick start the plan. Do wish me well. Other then world peace, I wish that the government allow gay couple to unit and allow us to apply for HDB flat.

Oh well that for what I need to say for now, and I am going to move to a new blog but not now lah. Just seat back and read this posting.

HAPPY NEW YEAR AND MAY YOUR WISH COME TRUE

It go know that YK been reading my blog and some people who happen to come by. Yet, either than YK and my wife, I have no other friend. Even though YK is my friend, but I can only meet him online, and for my wife not all the time like I wish only on certain time. For that also, I have to pray hard meeting him at lease one week.

Don’t talk about work, there I am all alone, just caring for my own work. Not that I so picky, only a certain group are exclusive to me, but I am just shy and work is hell on earth for me. Note I still interact with my colleague, but there nothing personal we chat about other than what machine to clean, top up chemical and do etch rate. This is my stupid life. Not like when I at school or doing my National Service, where I have friends. Working life suck and I do know the fact, this not just happening to me but some poor soul out there.

So what can I do? That I cannot answer, if there is a good soul out there please help me. I frequent visit at Sgboy, but my interaction there more poor. Well may be lah, I going to be all alone should something happen between my wife and me or not alone but only with my wife.

I do say I want to live with him, but with his mum I don’t know lah.

How can I be alone when I have a boyfriend? Ok my wife I call him. (Hmmm wife shall I be his official title). I love him yes I do even now dare having hi picture together on my phone. So why must me be alone? He loves me. I just want him, not just for my pleasure but as well for a friend. This love to me, yes love.

How stupid am I no seeing this when not able to meet? I feel miserable. Always waiting for my phone to ring or have message from him. Therefore this blog must crease but YK will have to re-link me again.

Don’t worries YK because going auto direct the blog for you.

Oh mine look at the time. New year is coming yet my life still suck that a good news because I still have a life do it. My boiboi I start to love him again after all this while. Ok that all for now.

Happy Holiday